Upset

2011-08-10T03:44:00.001-07:00

Actually I'm not fine. I am not happy in these few months : / I don't know who should I tell to so I decided to write this all in my blog. Cause I think no more people will read it so I can "fong sam" to write everything here :)

Erm..start from where? Start from my life after spm :) After spm I expect to study college seriously. I really hope can study even though I don't like. Cause I knew that's the last few years school/college life in my life. When I getting old I wanna study also feel paiseh and scare people laugh weih. What course I want to study? Either business or marketing :) don't know why I not really like make-up, designer those courses. Lols!

But i have no money to study -.- I'm not playing or joking with u guys. If I borrow money from government I have no pocket money also. Cause my mom told me she won't give me money if I study. Cause last time she gave a lots to my bro and second Sis. And dad said he needs to give my two younger Sis and especially my big younger sis. Cause she studying at Private school. And if I still want pocket money then work for him. If you think outside salary higher than him don't wanna work with him then u can prepare ur things and shift to outside. That's conditional they gave me. And they like to say " we didn't force you, you can do what you like" Anyone can teach me which should I choose? Hahaha. or I still got another choice. I must study and get a good result. Can't change course, can't fail. Otherwise will stop my studying. Seriously I'm scare too. Cause my result from last time is not that good. Just okok boleh tahan~ i can't make sure without fail or I won't change course and get a good result for urs. Actually this condition is from my Sis not parents also.

Apart from this is..I don't like my parents too over partial. I used to have RM500 (salary+pocket money) per month since I help them work and Save the money to bought my lap top my birkenstock from self. And now they told me want buy one pair for big younger Sis. And she only 15. Her pocket money almost same with me. I together with work only get the money. Even though my salary now were rise. She was spend too much in a week. Why must use all branded stuff to school? Everything i want i need i shopping my bday or others my parents won't give me money like they gave them. Sometimes mom will support some, but not like bro n her. No choice. I'm not YOU -_-" lols! Maybe just because of i'm the most quiet in the house? hmmm..

Parents say they're too tired with their job. And plan to retired. I said I want to continue their business but it seems like nobody support me -.- and mom likes not really want I work this business. She says this business is kinda tired. Better work others business. When I heard that my tears drop. Quite heartache. Can anybody teach me how to do business ah? I really hope to learn it. That's why I want to study business and marketing too. *big sigh* anyway,I love u dad and mom :) choose what you both think that's good for you two :)

And talking back about the boy :) quite heartache last few days. The sentence keep repeat and repeat on my mind. " Why your performing skills so good? No1. And actually sometimes see you like that i would rather don't find and see your face after I work " seems like he kinda tired and hate to face me with your temperament chloe lim :) haha i am putting a smiling face and thinking of tingtong. Why am I these days keep like that? Answer from the top til down here. I so :( u know tak? Sure you don't know cause you're damn busy from April til now. Hahaha.. And you are damn selfish.. Very familiar with this sentence right? Ya I admit I'm talking about you. But I think myself too la. Hahaha. Why am I saying you're selfish!? Erm.. Cause your room everything is about her. The watch u said u bought by self. But do u remember I read ur msg before. Not now. Is very long time ago. I remembered she mentioning the red and black color watch still on ur table now is she bought for u. Suit with ur superman red polo tee. If I am not mistake. But the watch my ex bought for me u ask me don't wear and I gave it to my Sis. And you don't like what my ex gave me. Okay I throw it. But you? Everything still in the room, store room, computer, wardrobe, cupboard..can see all of em anywhere. The flowers, super big size picture frame, toys, clothes and othersss. After half year u just clean a bit "dazzling" stuff in ur room especially the wardrobe. Should I say you're a deep emotion boy than me?

Haha..know why I delete all my pict ah? Cause I really can't tahan. I felt that I'm so ugly. And I just like a better substitute although I knew I'm not. Just yours life is too diversity but me. that's why my gila gila hand and fingers do it. Maybe you are still thinking what u always thought. I'm too sensitive and emotional girl ever. But if one day u find all me and my ex pict more than few thousand on my lap top, and I still keep all the sweet stuff I make for him, what he make for me he bought for me. And the important is I view his pict almost every week without fail (maybe myself didn't realise it) wanna know what ur feel if that's me. Lol Know what I mean? I'm blur when i read back what i wrote. Hahaha. Winny's bf delete his ex fb since together with her. But until today she still jealous and angry because of nth. Actually I no need to explain so much here. I think no one will und. Haha. Just can say finally in these few months you fail to put a smile on my face. You used to without fail to make me smile everyday everynight every moment. You said I change. Maybe? :) ahemm.. I feel better much after I write it out here :) thanks bloggie :)

when i feeling upset and crying, i just hope someone hug me and say" everything will be okay".

*and I miss my bcde :( *

Jan ~ March 2011 1-3月份的生活

2011-04-29T22:42:00.000-07:00

The life in 2011 i can feel that a bit different with 2010.

Not better Not worse still the same normal just change my life style a little bit.

Cause last time i was sleep in the morning 9am everyday or even late than that hour.

But now i wake up everyday in the morning 9am =)

healthy right? xD

And i have getting less and less going to club already.

It doesn't means i'm a good girl or what.

Just i tired and lazy dy.

Cause for me going to a club or night club it's nothing.

especially i didn't touch the drug, ciggy just only alcohol **i admit**

and i didn't go a lots club before

like Opera, Rootz, Bedroom and Milk i just went there ONCE when grand opening, and Maison ONCE, Mist TWICE ONLY @.@ LoLs!

sample of the party night ;)


At Caffeiness with the sisters and DAN FRAN. lololols!

the henry yong b'day and babe jacklyn =)


my lovely baobei aieee <3


at library when ah da b'day <3

And here is some of my family picts =)

yes, I like to stick with my family much.

So, maybe i'm not a good girlfriend, but indeed i'm a good wife in future i think. HAHAHAHA!

And as i said,i will hard to update my blog =D

kinki lim and i

vinky lim and i

FAMILY = father and mother i love you.

valentine's day =D

my mom looks happy with her grandson =D

New blog

2011-04-26T06:52:00.000-07:00

OMG!! I couldn't open my old blog =( why la? ishhhh

i tried whole day,and the **secret question** i set on last time i had forgot already =(

my gawd! So i have force to open a new one here.

Never mind also. I not really updated my blog last time.
I think only that few person will realize it. lols!

- Finally i had bought my RED lappy =D

teehee**i do love RED and PINK colour a lot a lot~
that's why you can see that my car, lappy, camera, slipper, and other~
all is RED colour one.
and the important is i bought this with cost to cost, thankyou Alvin Goh =D
haha

since i have my new lappy here, i'll hard to update my new blog too=)

Chloe Lim ♥

Upset

(Ｔ＿Ｔ）心痛

Jan ~ March 2011 1-3月份的生活

New blog